oh i feel ucky, i guess i am in what you would call a funk. or soemthing like that, i wonder if there is a definition for funk (maybe someone could look that up for me, and i don't mean the music kind) i need my boyfirend or someone to call me and get me out of this. i am worried about social things with dance and such, and what i am doing for the summer. my parents said we might not go to italy and im not sure if i should go to orlando with this kinda sleezy guy who invited a bunch of people from my school. im just not as excited about my summer as i was a while ago.
senoir pieces are coming up and one is really good, and one sucks. it makes me sad when someone just can't get it together to make a good piece, she keeps on changing the choreography and then blames us when we can't keep up. oh dear this is going to be an interesting week. and then one more week of school and then vacation, is it weird that most of my time is spent counting down time until i get to see adrian again? my mother says we should just get betrothed so we don't have to worry about breaking up or anything, she said it would make it a lot easier lol. i dont know i actually never pictured this relationship lasting this long, i mean i plan on being with different people before high school is over, but what if this is it? i mean he really gets me. wow do i sound in love. i guess im also worried about whats gonna happen next time i see him. im not sure that im ready to go to that next physical level, but i mean i guess i could see it happening. i just don't wanna do anything im gonna regret, not that i would i just worry. and he wants to try pot, which i know it sounds ucky of me but i am glad. becuase then i think he will know what it feels like, and not be bothered by me occaisionally using drugs. by the way i have not done anything in over a month and a half. but anyway the dolls were amazing! i wish everyone could have been there. ill try to get myself out of this ucky ness, but im not promising anything.
~the real adaza