wow today it is officially 2 weeks, it seems like it will go by fast hopefully, but i just don't know. its going to be amazing hopefully, but its a long time coming. yesterday we talked about kids and marriage, and the weird thing is i could actually see myself maybe staying with him that long, i mean i can at least see us living together. sleeping in the same bed and never wanting to get up, just lay in eachothers arms forever. i just wonder if we did have a relationship where we could see eachother every day, would it be as strong. would it hold up if we were in a normal relationship? of course it would, why am i even asking? but i definitly think that his moving has helped us get to where we are now. theres just a lot of pressue in a relationship like this, like if we don't move to the next level we have to wait until we see eachother again. if i feel ready its not like i can jsut go over to his house. i don't even know if im ready, lately it depends on what company im in, i feel like such a pushover. anyway, is it wrong to only want half of the next level?
Posted at 02:49 pm by Adaza
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lizilize
April 18, 2005 08:12 AM PDT
i expect a full update when you get back!!! |
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bear
April 3, 2005 09:01 AM PDT
Nope. and i know what you mean, not that i can relate exactly to what your saying, due to the circumstances. but love, i want the same things you want. so hang in there, because you won't know until you really know, and you'll know when you really know becaus you get this feeling inside your stomach, and this little thing in your brain says " you know what to do" and you get this surge of confidence, and then you'll say the words out loud, and i'm not saying that there won't be any nervousness, heck yes there will be, but you'll know. don't ask me how i know, i just do. |
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