hey kids
i know it has been such a long time but i feel that it is time i go back into the blogdrive thing, since i know you all cannot hear enough about my life anyway, its not like i don't tell u all the time, lol.
alright well, i know ive been using the excuse of not writing because i don't know what to say about everything that has been going on lately (and that has been a lot) but heres the long and short of it. i just got back from planned parenthood. (and no i didn't run into any jesus freaks trying to save my soul and give up my right to contraception)
its so weird to think about everything that has been going on, i mean i guess we all figured that i might be the first one to have sex, but i didn't. and if u had asked me if i thought i would have sex and have my parents find out about it by the beginning of the summer i would have told you you were crazy. but they did and actually this might not be the worst thing in the world.
i mean their not goingt o bash in adrians head or send me to catholic school, although i do think their are going to be some major restrictions. in about an hour i am having a meeting with my parents and adrian so that we can discuss it (i know scary) but my dad told me that they want to embrace what was going on and not push me away, and hes really more concerned about taking care of my mom and not letting this drive her over the edge. i guess hes a pretty cool sweet guy.
anyway even though adrian is an idoit and left a fucking condom on the piano, and thats what got us busted i realized that im not mad at him, theres this level of unconditional love and even though sex is AMAZING ive found that its nice to just go on dates and hold hands and kiss. i guess i really love him and were going to tell my parents that we are willing to separate ourselves for the rest of the summer to prove that we are mature enough and compleatly invested in this relationship.
trust is a very funny thing, because ive never had problems with it with my parents, ive always been a good kid who would always do the right thing, and now theres this thing that i want so badly im wiling to lie for it. trust is hard to gain once you've lost it but im going to try

but i don't regret what ive done, im in love, there should at least be a little respect for that