my mother officially knows who the dresdon dolls are, and can almost sing coin opperated boy. HAS THE WORLD GONE MAD? oh she also says she loves them, i don't know how i feel about this new found hipness brought to her by the river. i don't mind that she likes cool music, its just she happends to like anything they play just becuase they play it and others like it. we need to refine her music tastes, but i guess the dolls is a good place to start. she tolf me i was quiet as a child, a day of revelations

i want to be in a french movie. with glorious pinch waisted, full skirt dresses; down to the knee for just a hint of scandle. a sofisitcated lady with a hint of fem fatal. my hair done up in pins, which my love carefully removes, one by one, until my fruit sented waves fall delicately over one side of my face. we would play the match game, for each one lit an article coming off. no pantyhoes, just delicate naked legs. he would smell every inch of me. not touching until he finally gazed into my eyes, my soul windows. he would smile slightly and then kiss me softly, his bare lips just brushing mine.

yesterday i had one of those spill your guts, childhood memory, tell me all the times you thought you were a loser conversations. this of course was after adrian and i fought about me drinking 2 shots that were given to me by my parents, and i started crying about my mom being bitchy to me. anyway it was like he was really interested in how my friends had dumped me in 4th grade and what had hapend with 'pulling back the blinds' i just felt so conected to this one person. and i do want change, i don't want to be stuck in my ways, its funny how yoga can affect you, even when you thought some of it was compleate crap before. life is all about experiencing things.

i danced the whole way home today. and it wasn't the bob your head, possibly mouth the words to the song your listening to dancing. it was that jumping, spinning, laughing, happy dancing. the kind of dancing you see people on the street do when they are rocking out to their music, and you think: damn i wish i could be that confidant, unaware, uncaring, amazing, and happy as that person is. today i am that person
a man drove up and stopped me mid twirl and said "hey beautiful can i dance with you", and i smiled and said "sorry no" and he smiled and drove away. and i did feel beautiul. beautiful and amazing and in love.
it was one of those clean crisp blue cold days, days of infinant possibilities. a day to dance and sing and make love all in one. beautiful

"I was slung-lo and
So gung-ho
For anything to get me to start
I had my rock
I had my roll
But I couldn't find my spark

A flip of the hi-fi
A glimpse of the good life
And the clouds began to fade
I'm turning this B-side
Around to a de-light
Blue skies are here to stay

"She was so down, look at her now
She's never been so high!
Everyone knows, give it some time
The clouds'll clear the sky!"

Light the radio
Til it explodes
I'm dancin' til I drop
One small step
First right then left
I'm never gonna stop

"She was so down, look at her now
She's dancin' til she drops!
Everyone knows, give it some time
You'll find what you have lost!"

It is my style to take awhile
To put the feeling down to page
I get around to making sound
When the fancy meets the phrase!

"She was so down, look at her now
She's never been so high!
Everyone knows, give it some time
The clouds'll clear the sky!"

I'm gonna burst
Right out of this world
And I won't do it alone
A kick to the heart
A lift for the charts
One listen and we'll be gone
And then who cares?
We're debonair
And we're dancin' our way back home

"She was so down, look at her now
She's never been so high!
Everyone knows, give it some time
The clouds'll clear the sky!"

i can't believe im fucking done with math and humanities, i bought a celebration pillow

all i can say is it was amazing. i have no time to type, but i feel so connected. and hes so beautiful and smart and full of love. im trying not to gush but i just....... it was amazing. (and i know quite dirty, but theres no need to be ashamed, i was good i promis) i miss you all

as liza so poginantly put it, this is a formal adios until later. haha i love stealing other peoples lines, anyways tomorrow i am off to travel for the first time by my self. ahhhh, im actually excited, it will be nice to have some alone time (even though 7 hours is a bit much) and possibly take a nap for the first time in a long time. also if this trip works out, there is a very good chance that might be taking more trips like this in the future (without Mr. Garcia knowing about it, yes he knows i am going to visit my boyfriend, don't ask) and as long as i finish my seminar short story analysis before tomorrow, which i actually should be doing right now; i will only have to write my humanities this weekend. im not that nervous about spending 3 days only with adrians family, maybe i should be, but im not that smart lol. im just excited to be able to get to see him, to think its only been two weeks, from that glorious (semi dirty) weekend and actually my last blogdrive entry. wow i should really update,
anyway well i have to go but i love you all and ill talk to you on tuesday. thank you for the e-mail liza, you are fabulous. chessie you are a dawl, please come to duncan next week (it was so fabulous seeing you and eating too much on sat). kate you are my soul mate and im so sorry about the shoe shopping, i promis there were no drugs (just a crazy car ride) but i wanna see you so we should get together.
and every one (including me) should start planning my napoleon themed birthday party, cause i think it sounds fabulous, oh and yes a valintines day party (cause i don't think my kess is gonna be here, yes that is a new sicking nick name for him; tear. but im seeing him tomorrow so yayyayyay) vaginas rock.
p.s i didn't get into the play but i dont really care, i wasn't sure if i wanted to do it anyway, and it would have been crazy cause i would have had no time at all for any of you lovelies, and we can't have that now can we?
LOVE adriane (in love)

he was here for 4 glorious days, but now hes gone. i feel like i know him so well now, and seeing him go hurts, so much more than it did before. at times i fear he might love me too much, or get jelous but most of the time its just enough. he has gotten quite smooth though lol.

hey babes, sry that other entry had no spaces in it, i forgot them. lol oopps. and u can't put spaces back in things once you've written them, dammit we should complain about that, form a union. jk just wanted to give an update after being at the grandparents for 4 days straight. I AM STILL ALIVE. yay i know that was the burning question on your minds. it was actually pretty bearable. Also i have discovered that my grandparents are turning 80, damn, but their still so cute. and i found out how my dad got out of the army. he sat ontop of his wall locker NAKED for a day, then the armny was convinced he was mentally insane and gave him an honorable discharge. im sure theres more to that story but maybe ill give that to u later.

i am almost off to see my lovely laura at her house for three days and spend it relaxing and movie watching, yes its gonna be good. then adrian's coming! YES. finallly, we don't really have anything planned but i have been day dreaming a lot and thinking about a few things we can do *wink*. haha actually girls im thinking about going a wee bit farther with him this time, no worries nothing very far but u know, we've really reached a new emotional level since he left, and i think its time to take an enicy weincy step up in the physicall level. ill give u all the details later, alrighty im off for a few days but the cell will be on. someone must plan this present exchange thing, when ever it is going to happen, those of u who don't have gifts from me jsut wait. love you all.

1. What kind of underwear are you wearing, and what color are they?- rocky horror undies, yay, black and lacy
2. 2. What songs do you want played at your funeral? - hmm don't know, but i want it to be live, i want the mourners to sing
3. What would your last meal be before being executed? – oh hope it never comes to this, honey nut cherrios maybe
3. 4. Beatles or Stones? - beatles
5. If you had to pick one person on earth to die, who would it be? - George W. Bush (i stole this from everyone)
6. The person whose problems you don't want to hear? - holly's, but i would want to hear anyones problems
7. What is the thing most important to you about the preferred sex?- a little confuzed about what this means, love i guess
8. Do you secretly hate some of your friends but are too nice to reject them?- NO!! well not hate. lol. get tired of some people sometimes. but i thought that was normal. none of the ppl who r reading this.
9. If you could have any superpower, what would it be? - to fly
10. Favorite hangover cure? - never had a hangover
11. How many drinks does it take to get you drunk? - hmmmmmmmm, lets just say depends on the drink lol.
12. Favorite song lyric?- love is like a piano dropped out a four story window, and you were at the wrong place at the wrong time. ~ani
13. Hair color you most like someone you're dating to have?- brown, but im not the picky
4. 14. If you had to be blind or deaf, which would you choose?- tough, i don't know maybe deaf
15. Do you have any psychiatric problems?- nope, people say im crazy but i don't believe them.
16. Siblings that should go to rehab?- none
17. Least favorite month?- none... je'taime them all
18. Favorite hateful thing to do to somebody?- silent treatment
19. First movie you remember seeing as a kid?- snow white
5. 20. Favorite person in the whole world?- awww kate said adriane, it depends on my mood, i love you all but maybe kate or adrian lol.
21. When's the last time you went on a date?- well adrians coming next week, can you say 3 day date
22. Do you like violent movies or dirty movies? - dirty movies definitely.
23. The name of your very first boyfriend/girlfriend?- ewww charles
24. Fall or spring?- i think fall
25.Person you most wish you hadn't made out with?- haha question 23
26. If you are straight, what person of the same sex would you do it with?- omg the girl from the 5th element, can u say hott. or that girl from h+m (chessie knows what i mean)
27. Where do you want to live when you are old and brittle?- a cottage with my hubby
28. Who is the person you can count on the most?- Adrian or chess, i can count on most of u guys
29. If you could date any celebrity, past or present, time and age are not a factor?- johnny depp (can i get an amen)
30. What's a word/phrase you'd use to describe your life?- CRazY,more sad than usual lately, but im gonna remedy that
current clothing: roos, jeans, silly chilly snowcones shirt, snowflake sweater i got with chess and liza
current mood:relaxed
current taste: toothpaste, even though that hasn't been in my mouth recently
current hair: pig tails, adrian says their just so fucking cute
6. current annoyance:chessie's whistle (haha this was such a good answer i couldn't change it)
current smell: peach perfume
current thing you ought to be doing:packing
current jewelry:livestrong braclet (oh yeah baby) and hoop earings that i was gonna give to someone else but then liked to much
current book: woman warrior, and huck fin
current refreshment: none
current worry: that im gonna be stuck in RI for 4 days and not be able to talk to anyone
current crush: my baby
current favorite celebrity(s): johny depp, the guy who plays dracula
current longing: my boyfriend (i know im a dork)
7. current music: the DANCE song from napolean, don't know what its really called )maybe canned heat)
current wish: for it to be next week
current lyric in your head: dance got canned heat in my heels tonight
current undergarments: rocky undies, bra
current regret: that im not packing
current desktop picture: lots of blending colors
current plans for tonight/weekend: Chiristmas! 11 oclock service with the grandma
current cuss word du jour: ?
favortire swear -- fuck or bitch, or up your ziggy with a wawa brush
current disappointment: that i have to go to RI
current amusement: the thought that i have no idea what im getting for christmas
8. current IM/person: celia
current love: adrian, i think im really starting to fall for him guys.
current obsession: nightmare before christmas
current avoidance: don't know
current thing or things on your wall: simpsons poster, bullitin board of unnessecary things that make me laugh
9. current favorite book: speak
current favorite movie: strictly ballroom
31: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says "He can capture whoever is standing behind!"
10. 32: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?: a blank cd my computer says isn't blank
11. 33: What is the last thing you watched on TV?: simpsons or good day live, can't remember
34: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is: 4:45
35: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?:4:52
36: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?: my music
37: When did you last step outside? walking home from michaels. damn it was cold
12. what were you doing?: walking home
39: Did you dream last night? yes, can't remember it. something strange
40: When did you last laugh? like an hour ago
13. 41: What is on the walls of the room you are in?: pictures i made when i was 5 and are but ugly
14. 42: Seen anything weird lately?: michael stumbling out of a porterpottie, don't ask
43: What do you think of this quiz?: that i have got to stop. now.
44: What is the last film you saw?: oceans 12
45: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?: world peace lol
15. 46: Tell me something about you that I don't know: i might be bi, shhhhhh don't tell
47: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?: make every continent mixed race, i don't know
48: Do you like to dance?:LOVE IT
49: George Bush: the greatest mistake america ever mad
50: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?: ariana
16. 51: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?: david
52: Would you ever consider living abroad?: of course
:x: name =adriane
x: piercings =both ears
:x: tattoos =none
:x: height = 5'4''.5
:x: shoe size = 7.5
:x: hair color = many different colors, red brown + gold
:x: siblings = 1 sis
:x: you have a crush on someone = its more of a love connection lol.
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else = sometimes
:x: you think about suicide = i have but not really
:x: you believe in online dating = have never tried it, couldn't say
:x: others find you attractive = i assume so, im hott lol.
17. :x: you want more piercings = don't know
:x: you like cleaning = depends what kind
:x: you like roller coasters =yes
18. :x: long distance relationships = working currently, not my perferred way though
:x: using someone = never okay
:x: suicide = it makes me cry
19. :x: teenage smoking = cigarets are horrible for anyone
:x: driving drunk = digusting
:x: gay/lesbian relationships = **shrugs** fine and dandy
:x: soap operas = kinda borring
HAVE YOU...
:x: ever cried over a girl = yes ( but not in that way)
:x: ever cried over a boy = yes
:x: ever lied to someone = sometimes
:x: ever been in a fist fight = nope
:x: ever been arrested = nope
WHAT...
:x: shampoo do you use = herbal escences
:x: shoes do you wear = roos
:x: are you scared of = being alone, the dark, dying, wow i sound really afraid
NUMBER...
:x: of times I have been in love? = once possibly
:x: of times I have had my heart broken? = partialy once
:x: of hearts I have broken? = don't know
:x: of girls I have kissed? = none,
:x: of boys I have kissed? =three
:x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = i'll namethem it's easier: Adrian, kate, chess, Adrian, liza, maybe some others
:x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? =no idea
:x: of scars on my body? = a couple small ones,
:x: of things in my past that I regret? = small things, a lot, lying people
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
:x: pretty ? yes i believe i am, not georgous but pretty
:x: funny ? sure sometimes
:x: hot ? sooo hott in the rocky costume
:x: friendly ? yes
:x: ugly ? erm... see "pretty" for answer
20. :x: lovable ? yes, well hopefully
:x: caring ? definitly, i try
21. :x: sweet ?- yes
:x: dorky ?-yes
22. FAVOURITE...
5 letter word: catch at the moment, don't know why
actor/actress: johnny depp,audrey tautou
Candy: junior mints
Cartoon: simpsons, get fuzzy
23. Cereal: honey nut cheerios
Chewing gum: don't know
24. Color(s):hmmm red
day: saturday maybe
Flower: rose or lily, don't really have a favorite
Jell-O flavor: red
Jewelry: earrings
skills/talents: dance acting singing, triple treat baby
25. Summer/Winter: like 'em both... summer
PERSON WHO LAST...
Slept in your bed: which bed? i guess me
Saw you cry: my mother
26. Made you cry: cancer, and period
You went to the movies with: family
Sent you an email: adrian
HAVE YOU EVER..
Said "I love you" and meant it?: yes, i love my friends, and my parents, and to adrian which i think i might be starting to mean.
Went out in public in your pajamas:yup, all the time
27. Kept a secret from everyone: hmm not sure, maybe
Cried during a movie: i don't really cry during movies, i did during i am sam lol
Ever at anytime owned new kids on the block stuff: no

Been on stage:yes, my favorite pass time
Been to California: yes, go disney land